Tuesday, February 27, 2007.
11:00 PM
anyone watched Dreamgirls? cool movie. not fantastic lah, but the vocals were superb! kudos especially to Beyonce and Jennifer Hudson, for the excellent singing & acting.
could relate a lot to the film too, coz i feel that it's ok to dream, and everyone should have their own dreams. believe in it, and one day it might come true, just like how the Dreamgirls did. but sometimes i wonder, do actresses and singers really sleep with the producers so that they can get their break? it's so unfair. and stupid. don't you think?
anyway, go catch the movie if you have time. the singing alone is worth the money.
Hate going into a new project. always. have to do the whole process again. hate it!!! especially doing an 80 Eps one. read the script only want to fall asleep. the AP fate lies in the scriptwriter's hands you know!
kinda miss Xing Fu. it was so relaxed compared to this. the artistes were very responsible. Biren, Pinghui, Pierre(except for correcting his chinese), May, Aileen etc... didn't have to worry about them. and the PC was excellent, organised everything neatly for me. (maybe it was only 2 Eps lah, but still) .....Now? *big sigh*
只好一天过一天
i. just want to SING
Saturday, February 10, 2007.
12:39 AM
why.
why.
why!!!
it's so unfair. i haven't even completed my current project, and they throw me a new one. 10 episodes somemore. what were they thinking? putting a new AP in so many episodes? they think i'm superwoman izzit? they think i won't mess up the whole thing?, i mean, 10 eps is serious business leh! you must be very experienced to handle it. they are making a huge mistake. i'm not saying i'm not confident, but it's just stupid lah. lack of AP also cannot anyhow plan mah.
anyway, they didn't give me a chance to say no. so u can guess what i'm doing now. the paperwork load is X 5 now. Row is here to help me, but still i know that i won't do well. i didn't even have time to read the scripts!
so stress right now.........
so f***king irritated, fustrated, worried, confused.....
Ping Hui saw me today, and he was like "wah you look so stress!" usually when i'm stressed, i will try and control it. but this time i had to let everything out. i related to him every shit that i'm going through now...i must have looked depressed or something, coz he thought i was gonna cry. :P patted me on the back and told me not to worry so much, "take one step at a time ok." it motivated me a bit lah.
thanks Ping Hui.
now i have to go back to typing all the shit.
it's 1.02AM.
Can somebody explain to me how i got myself into this mess?
i. just want to SING
